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[12 Nov 2009|09:19pm] [ mood | sad ] I'm having a bit of a rough day. Last week one of my friends from back home died unexpectedly and today was his funeral and I feel bad that I couldn't go. I feel soooo bad for his family, he and his wife were separated headed for divorce and their little girl was just starting to really form relationships and now he's gone. Just gone. But not gone in a good way, gone in a really really bad way, it's a suspected overdose. I don't know why this has been bothering me so much but it is so I'm just gonna try to ride through it. 1 comment|post comment

Writer's Block: Le Quatorze Juillet [14 Jul 2009|11:06pm] Happy Bastille Day! Today the French celebrate the event that sparked the French revolution. In honor of our Francophone friends, what is your favorite French thing? Bonus points for answers en français. View 502 Answers J'aime les goefs!! post comment

Writer's Block: Firsts [06 Jul 2009|10:26pm] What was the subject title of your first-ever LJ entry? Submitted By paperxflowerz View 501 Answers Testing, testing 1-2-3 post comment

Life what a game! [06 Jul 2009|10:08pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Taylor Swift - Love Song ] So how sad is it that I looked on my login page and it said my last update was like 27 weeks ago!!!  Don't answer that! Quite a bit has changed in my life. I've moved to a basement apartment with just one roommate and LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!  It's just so perfect for me! I started working as a temple worker and I'm so excited. And I got laid off.  I was working in the accounts payable department of one of Utah's "best" construction companies.  I was hired to do one thing and then they saw that I could catch on so I did almost everything in the department.  I was given the task of making sure our 250+ visa credit cards with 3 different due dates were paid on time and correctly.  And I managed to do it "better than anyone in the history of the company," but they decided that wasn't good enough.  I was proactively trying to be crosstrained and I would stick up for myself and call the guys on the fishy charges I saw and made notes about not being comfortable with some of them but was told to pay them by my boss.  Well I guess crap has hit the fan from up the chain of command and now my boss is taking heat for letting so many thing through.  LOL!  I did my job and 2 other people's jobs on a regular basis and now it takes 4 people to do my ONE task.  I LOVE IT!!  I think they'll see that the lost one heckuva an employee when they let me go.  And I'm not just saying that to stoke my ego.  I'm a DANG good employee. Interesting little side note though.  I was miserable there!  I hated what I was doing.  I had 2 bosses who were TERRIBLE at managing people, one who didn't have a spine and was totally flaky and the other who would literally follow me into the bathroom to make sure I was really going and not just taking a 2 minute break.  *shakes head*  I'm happier now not knowing where I'm gonna get my money or when I'll get another job than I EVER was a day there.  How sad is it that I was ok accepting that for my life?  Not any more! I'm going back to school.  I've registed for the fall to start with Arabic and I'm going to be going to the U to get a BA in Middle Eastern Studies.  I'll be fluent in Arabic and probably Hebrew or maybe Persian by the time I'm done.  I don't know what I'll do with it, but i do know that I'm gonna do it.  It's something that interests me and i want it badly enough now to stay a thousand miles away from my family and deal with snow so that's gotta say something. Anyway, I'm going to be going home for probably 2 weeks and I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited.  I love my family so much and miss them soo much!  YAY!!!  post comment

Writer's Block: Redoing Nature's Color Palette [26 Aug 2008|10:28pm] If you could manipulate the color schemes of nature, what things in nature would you change the color of? What would you change them to? Submitted By laurelsing View 501 Answers  I would change the color of the sky to a majestic purple.  post comment

Writer's Block: The Meaning of Love [25 Aug 2008|11:52pm] What does love mean to you, and why? Have you always felt this way? Submitted By rynanne View 500 Answers  Love is patient, kind, long suffering, is not puffed up, is not vain.   It's selfless. It's wanting to be better than you are because you want to be, not because anyone else wants you to be. It's all the little things. It is soo many levels and types.  It's incredible, it's immovalbe. Yet at the same time, it can't always conqure everything.  Sorry Lennon, but It's not all you need. No, I haven't always felt this way, I've felt the first part most of my life and the last 2 have developed over the last 3 years or so. post comment

Writer's Block: Reality TV Your Way [03 Aug 2008|10:07pm] If you could make your own reality show, what would it be about and who would be on it? Submitted By lauralieisfly View 500 Answers  The drama of a high school training room. post comment

YAY!! [02 Jun 2008|10:08pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | SHeDAISY --Don't Worry 'Bout a Thing ] Just wanted to post that tonight I sent off my final payment for the appartment!  YAY!!!! YA-HOO!!!!  I'm that much closer to being done with that chapter of my life and being out of debt!  YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  :D 7 comments|post comment

Writer's Block: Some words to live by... [02 Jun 2008|10:06pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | SHeDAISY --Don't Worry 'Bout A Thing ] What words do you find wise enough to live by? View 502 Answers Pain is inevitable, misery is optional. Celebrate. Look unto me in every thought, doubt not, fear not. post comment

Writer's Block: For the Day Off... [27 May 2008|12:10am] If you've got Monday off, how are you spending it, and with whom? View 500 Answers  Home, alone. post comment

[15 May 2008|11:35pm]   Daughtry  Over You Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you. You took a hammer to these walls, Dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and walked away. There was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, A lot of others opened up, So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. Well I'm putting my heart back together, 'Cause I got over you. Well I got over you. I got over you. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.   Oh, and P.S.--- No, I won't make it through because I have a Cornell hard head, I'll make it through because I'm a daughter of God and a Robertson!! :P 4 comments|post comment

Writer's Block: Reacting to my bad mood [14 May 2008|05:35pm] [ music | The tick-tock of the clock ] When you're having a bad day, how do you react? View 502 Answers  It all totally depends on what's making my bad day a bad day.  If I can figure it out I try to avoid whatever it is that's annoying me for awhile until I can figure out what I can do to fix it or change my opinion about it.  I cal my mom and vent to her too. 2 comments|post comment

Writer's Block: House Call [28 Apr 2008|12:05am] Whose house (besides your own) were you in last and why? View 501 Answers   My coworker Sunny's house, because her family loves me.  :)  And they were having a bar-b-q for her husband's ruby team so I went to support that. post comment

Questions [22 Apr 2008|09:59pm] Sorry, still haven't mastered the art of a lj cut.  BE HONEST! COPY FROM HERE THEN SEND DIRECTLY TO ME IN A COMMENT THEN, REPOST THE EMPTY QUESTIONS. 1) Are you currently in a serious relationship? 2) What was your dream growing up? 3) What talent do you wish you had? 4) If I bought you a drink what would it be? 5) Favorite vegetable? 6) What was the last book you read? 7) What zodiac sign are you? 8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. 9) Worst Habit? 10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 11) What is your favorite sport? 12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude? 13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? 15) Tell me one weird fact about you. 1 6) Do you have any pets? 17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? 1 8) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!) 19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? 21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? 22) What color eyes do you have? 23) Ever been arrested? 24) Bottle or can soda? 25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? 27) What's your favorite place to hang at? 28) Do you believe in ghosts? 29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? 30) Do you swear a lot? 31) Biggest pet peeve? 32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? 33) Do you believe in/appreciate romance? 34) If you could live anywhere in the world where would you choose? 35) Do you believe in God? 36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? 5 comments|post comment

Writer's Block: Where in the World... [02 Apr 2008|06:25pm] If you were independently wealthy, where in the world would you live and how would you spend your time? View 500 Answers  I'd split the majority of my time between Atlanta or Savannah Georgia and where ever I feel like going.  I'd travel a lot, trying to pick up on local culture and history.  I'd also spend most of the summer following the Atlanta Braves or going to the concerts of some of my favorite artists. post comment

Writer's Block: Weekend Plans [08 Feb 2008|10:11pm] What are your plans for this weekend? View 500 Answers   Going to meet my cousin's baby!!  *squee* post comment

[06 Feb 2008|09:02pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Erika Jo - Go ] *s igh*  Today has been a tough one.  I'm glad I'm on my way to bed. post comment

Gordon B Hinckley [28 Jan 2008|05:44pm]  The world lost an AMAZING man last night.  A righeous man who stood for all things good.  A warrior in this fight against evil.  And I'm sad because of it, but I glory in the fact that he's with his Maker and Savior. post comment

What Do You Have To Say? - When I Grow Up... [22 Jan 2008|12:28pm] What do you want to be when you "grow up?" Brought to you by HP View 471 Answers  I don't know and that's the problem I should be at least half way to grown up by now and I'm not.  I really just wanna be a wife and mother. 4 comments|post comment

[20 Jan 2008|12:00pm]  LIke a fool I've just spent the last 20 minutes reading my posts from last year about this time.  When I was busy getting engaged and married and now I'm just a crying mess.  So I haven't updated in awhile because I was waiting to ride things out.  About mid December Kevin and I were trying again to work things out.  It was really hard because well I live in Tooele and due to some choices he made he was living in a homeless shelter in Ogden, but we were trying.  And things were going ok (like the do) for awhile and then he just gave up.  Our love and our marriage wasn't worth fighting for.  It wasn't worth keeping promises to.  And yesterday he left.  I took him to the airport and watched him walk away.  Now I know at this point some of you are grunting in frustration.  Asking yourselves "why did she do it again??"  "what was she thinking?!?"  And to that my only response is I still love him.  I always will.  And I will always hope he'll make the right decisions.  I always want to believe him when he says he's gonna change and that he loves me enough to spend eternity with me.  I may very well be a fool, I don't doubt that at all.  This may not make sense to some of you, but I honestly believe I knew Kevin before this life.  That I loved him then too and Heavenly Father made a way for me to find him again.  In my soul I feel like I was meant to find him.  Meant to love him.  Maybe I'm just crazy and trying to convince myself that this much pain has to be for a reason and if that is the case so be it.  Either way I feel like I'm back in November living through Hell a thousand miles away from my family. This last week I spent a couple of hours on the phone with Kevin's parents.  And to my surprise they're disappointed in him.  They both separetly acknowledged all the hard work and love and dedication I put into my marriage.  And they both indepenently of the other told me that if I was their daughter they'd tell me to leave Kevin.  And his dad, who you know isn't my favorite person, said that while he didn't like me at first has really come to change his opinion about me and likes me a lot now.  He said "I didn't like you at first Kayla but then I realized, you were always fair.  You were always good to Kevin, and he won't find a better woman than you to take care of him."  That was nice to hear but it still sucks.  Kevin's parents, my parents and countless other people can see how much I've given of myself to him, how much I love him.  So many people but him. *Sigh* So I've come to the conclusion that I'm gonna work my butt off to get money to pay my debts.  Debts that were aquired directly because of Kevin but I really can't count on him paying his half.  And then moving back home.  I don't want to be here any more.  I only had the strength to be here so far away from home because I had Kevin and now that I don't have that I don't want to stay.  I don't want to just go running back to mom and dad, I totally expect to pay my portion of the bills and rent.  I'm gonna need some time for my credit to improve especially now that I hae an eviction on my credit report.  *sigh*  Anyway,  I'm too crazy right now to keep typing this and I'm tired and I really didn't wanna hear the "I told you sos" that's why I didn't say anything, but I guess I'm gonna get 'em anyway so yeah. 1 comment|post comment

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